Just another End of Year Post.

Well, what the hell. another has pass and we’re moving on to a new one. This year has been a real dramatic year for me. learned a lot things that i supposed i can make use of it in life later. and makes friends that i know i can trust and have for life. thats the best part of it. Honestly. this year ended pretty different from what i thought it will be at the begining of the year. Anyway, screw that. life’s full of surprise aint it? =). holiday is coming to an end. well. i guess i definitely got some experience during this holiday. i went to work. earn some pocket money. good thing. i got my display card for my computer. finished Call Of Duty Campaign. i actually finished everythin i planned for my holiday apart from my diving courses and life saving courses. and also my Interact Carnival Project.. LOL. I think it’s gonna be a rough year ahead of us. With the hardship sure brings along many laughter and ought and for most. Memories. for us to hold on to when we leave school. With this post. i would like to say to all of you.

‘Don’t Look Back and Mourn about what You didn’t do, but, Look To The Future and Tell Yourself, What I’m going to Do.’

I’ll just ‘KISS’(Keep It Short and Swift). no emo talks this year. I’m just gonna proudly say, my 2009 didn’t gone to waste. i’ve made full use of it. doing What i Want to Do. =). With this.

Adios, 2009! Howdy, 2010! C=. Take care everyone. Happy New Year.

P.S. : Cc thinks i should disband my blog. goddamnit. too lazy and really ran out of topic to upload. xD.

till here.

-Kiaos Tan-

Holiday.

Just another holiday. i’ve not been updating my blog since like, forever. jesus. ==. sorry. for that. guys. okay. what is up for holiday… i’ll list it down on the next post. it will be up by next week. and the Hong Kong trip post too. Check my blog next week. =). Till here. anyway. those of you wanna pick up a holiday part time job. i’ll tell you what. go screw yourself. that’s the last thing you will wanna do. ==.

Goddamn it..

okay. I’m writing this for the sake of writing it. its like I have so many freaking ideas running through my head while i don’t have my computer with me. Now that i’m sitting in front of the computer, i cant write shit. damn. really running out of stuff to write. any suggestions?

IF

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
‘ Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!

If, You Can Do That.

Communicate.

So. Have you guys ever wondered, what happens if two person does not communicate? whoever, mother-son, father-son, girlfriend-boyfriend, best friend-best friend and etc. Assuming that, it is one of the those which were mentioned above. what the hell is gonna happen if they do not communicate. personally, i think they’ll all be in deep shit. Pardon me if you don’t agree with me. You see. the very basic thing that we human do is to communicate. when we do not communicate, shit happens.

It's Important.

If one party totally confine themselves and refuse to communicate these are the thing we’ll probably get:

1. Real Shitty things, Both party starts to think ‘why hasn’t the other person come to try to talk to me, man, the cold war is suppose to end now..’ as time passes, both party eventually forgets and think that, god, why would i need that asshole. Sad case, big time.

2. When people don’t communicate, they tend to believe in rumors and kind of like, get a ass-kicking feeling. This is exceptional for those who has real strong trust built in the first place.

3. the real serious thing that can happen in this scenario, probably the shittiest of all. goddamn. ASSumptions, when two party doesn’t talk, they dont wanna go to each other one way or another. Man, bitch! isn’t that the most dangerous thing? life goes on, and they ASSUME that the other person know what they’re thinking, and they know what the other person is thinking. holy fuck, gimme a break. there goes the chaos, everything is just getting started to get fucked when this happens.

Now. do you see the damage the lack of communication can cause? Goddamn it, if you still can’t, its either i suck, or you’re a moron. pick one.

till then.

-Kiaos Tan-

Pig And Duck

‘Sohai.. Fuck You, move your ass..’ ‘You Talking to me?  bitch? you crazy?’

That’s probably how the conversation starts whenever we meet each other and it will usually end in no where.  yea. That’s me and my cousin Daryl.

its been 12 years. We just knew what to say to each other we never ran out of topics. and those memories we have. man. they kick ass. I’m just glad that I’ve found my my priorities again. I’ve been neglecting so many things for the past one year. which is totally dumb shit. and i hate the fact that i actually did that. damn. doesn’t matter that.

That's Us

this is the picture we took when we went frazer hill last Aug holiday. The weather is cooling up there. nothing much, just, food, talking and some mahjong. lol. Having said that the weather is cold up there, just perfect for come beverage huh? Just the right thing to warm you up a lil. well. it was around 12 i suppose, after he was done talking with dai sou. we head out to have a drink, just outside the ‘mansion’ we stayed in. Just Us and the beer, man, that kick ass. its been really long since we last did that.  Sitting there, with my cousin brother, kind of made me realize how much i’ve been neglecting my family for the past one fucking year. last year, i cant seem to remember the last time i actually had a talk with Daryl. Ever since we are young, we can never stop, NEVER, stop talking. We often talk till the morning, it sound gay i know. its just the shit we bitches been doing since then. Until i went kl last holiday, that’s when we actually sit down and talk. Both of us realize that how much we have lost touch with each other after one year. goddamn it, i asked ‘jesus, man what the fuck is wrong with you, you didn’t know that?’ ‘Man, you didn’t tell me shit, i ain’t pope you know’ Serve me right. i didnt bother to tell him anything, man, son of a bitch, i actually neglected my own brother? that’s real shit. I told him how shitty life was and for the first time i actually feel different, its just different from others. he just know what to say.  we spent the whole night talking at mamak stall with our roti telur and teh tarik, patching things up, i’ll call that updating the ‘system’. xD. Its real shitty when you neglected the important people in your life, all those things we’re after, we give in in order to please them, to get it, to stay outta trouble. we’re so obsessed that, we forgot our own real purpose in life. To Be Me. Who we are suppose to be. son of a bitch, why was i such an idiot? i got this figured out back in God knows when, i gave in, because i wanted to blend it.. son of a bitch, yea, thats what he’ll say. lol.

Taken In Australia few years back.

we often laughs at stupid stuff we’ve been through over the years. We need not speak, one look is enough. even our cousins sometimes wonder what the heck are we laughing about. i think my life now is getting back on track, where its suppose to be, where i want it to be.  When i said sorry to him for neglecting his ass for so long, he told me ‘what past is past, what are brothers for, bitch?’ i guess he’s damn right. asshole. till here. just an update for you guys after so long.  was having some prob with my computer.apologies for that.

this post is dedicated to you, Bitch.

-kiaos tan-

And So i Ate..

This is bad. very bad in fact. i jog just now. and i ate. and its not eggs nor meat. its carbohydrates!! shit. i’m dead. real dead. this is no emo post. this is purely a random post. i should be doing my interact stuff. what am i doing in wordpress. gosh.. i think i’m gonna blog later. should i? i don’t know. Important thing is. i ate. shit. i ATE! ok fine. seems to me that i’m losing my determination these days. gonna go back to old kiaos in no time. zz. till here. i’m think there’ll be an update. i suppose. later? yea. when i’m done with my reports and proposals. damn.

-kiaos-

Your Sunday Sermon

Pick From : Raja Petra Kamarudin(NO HOLDs BARRED) – 5TH JULY 2009

They say there are two types of people. There are leaders and there are followers. 1% of the people are leaders while the majority are followers.

Within these two categories are further sub-categories. There are good people and there are bad people.

Within the good people category, they can again be subdivided into two more categories. There are people who are good by nature and there are people who are good because they are scared of being bad. If they were not scared of being bad then they would certainly not be good because being bad is more fun than being good.

And within the bad people category there are people who are bad because they are bad by nature while others are bad because they feel they can get away with being bad without getting caught or that later they can always repent and become good whereby they would be forgiven for all the bad they have done.

And this is why people need religion. Religion stops you from being bad and forces you to be good. Without religion there would be no stick and carrot. You get the stick when you are bad and you get the carrot when you are good. It is a form of punishment and reward system. You get punished when you do bad and you get rewarded when you do good.

In short, religion works on the concept of the bribery system. You are bribed through the punishment and reward system when you do bad and good respectively. And since most people are susceptible to bribes they would conduct themselves accordingly depending on whether they wish to be rewarded or whether they do not fear the punishment and do not care much for the rewards.

Over thousands of years mankind has had to conduct itself based on what religion tells them they should do. Religion has been the guideline for our conduct long before the invention of the police force and the legal system comprising of laws and courts.

The history of religion, however, is a history of violence, persecution, cruelty and brutality. In the name of religion mankind has been subjected to much suffering.

The question is who invented religion? And is religion something that God sent us or something that man created to conveniently oppress and suppress fellow man?

I do not wish to engage in a debate as to the existence of God or otherwise. There are some who believe that there is a God (or Gods). Others believe in the existence of a higher power although they are not quite sure what it is and whether God is the correct word to use for this higher power. Then there are others who believe that man is the product of nature and not of a higher being named God or whatever.

I leave it to you to decide how you came to be.

All religions have what we could call holy books. The ‘main three’, also called the Abrahamic religions, have the Old and New Testaments and the Quran. A study of all three holy books would reveal that there are a lot of similarities and overlapping doctrines. You would not be mistaken if you were to think that the three Abrahamic faiths are actually one faith divided into three sects. Of course, these three ‘sects’ are further divided into many sub-sects who are at most times in conflict with one another.

Man has a natural instinct to be bad. But they are forbidden from being bad basically because the religion they believe in forbids it. If the religion they believe in were silent on the issue then most would choose to be bad rather than good. But they have no choice but to be good because they fear that if they are bad they would receive punishment and not receive the rewards promised to good people.

You could say that most people are not good by nature but are reluctantly good. It is not that there are no good people who are good by nature. There are, although they would be in the minority. And you will find that most of the people who are good by nature do not have any religion. Some do not even believe in God. They are good just because they are, by nature, good and for no other reason — in particular not because they believe in the system of rewards and punishment that religions propagate.

Has religion succeeded in its job of turning us into good people? Or has it instead turned us into hypocrites? How many of us are good because it is in our heart and how many are good because we have no choice but to be good? If religion were silent on what constitutes good and bad and if there are no rewards and punishment for being either what kind of person would we become?

That is something to ponder upon this Sunday. And before you adopt that holier than thou attitude and start moralizing, ask yourself: are you really a good person who has earned the right to preach or are you actually a hypocrite who is not really good but is just a coward who does not dare become a bad person like how you would rather be if given that opportunity?

Time To Work Your Brain. lol. Chao.

-Kiaos-

Apologies.

My Apologies to All My Blog Readers for neglecting my blog for quite some time. i’ll come up with an update as soon as possible. sorry guys. life’s been hectic. I’ll copy a post from my dad’s blog and post it here. its a nice one. till then. chao.

-Kiaos-

光辉岁月

光辉岁月

钟声响起归家的信号
在他生命里，彷彿帶点唏噓
黑色皮肤给他的意义
年月把拥有变做失去
疲倦的双眼帶著期望
今天只有殘留的軀殼
迎接光輝歲月

风雨中抱緊自由
一生经過傍徨的掙扎
自信可改变未來
问谁又能做到
可否不分肤色的界限
愿這土地裡 不分你我高低
繽紛色彩閃出的美丽
是因它沒有 分开每种色彩

光辉岁月.. It means The Best Time of our life. the lyrics really mean a lot. to and to accept. to embrace the difference. that is how things are suppose to be ain’t it? i wrote this post because of something i saw yesterday afternoon. well. i just bathed and getting ready to go out for lunch cause sachin stood me up. as expected. when i was grabbing my helmet and was ready to go out. i heard this song playing downstairs. in the streets. wait. no. something is singing. there was music playing even since i got home from school. i didnt pay much attention as i thought it was some digi promotion campaign and shits. now that it has got my atttention. i wondered to myself. who would be singing in the streets.  out of curiosity i went downstairs and i sang along. then i saw.

a man on a wheel chair. singing this song. and another man walking with the help of the walking stick.  behind him. pushing the speaker as they walk. i dont know why. lots of things suddenly came to my mind. thoughts. emotions. look at them. they might not be able to live like a normal person like we do. they can never run like we do. nor can they go do the sports they like. but. this two man. they never give up their life just like that. they didn’t go and beg for money. they decide to EARN their living instead. They did not give  up despite what God gave them.  who are we to say that our lives are too difficult and we wanna give up? i’m not trying to compare here. i’m just saying that you think you can’t stand it anymore. think about it. there is more who are worse out there. well. that works for me. it actually cools me down whenever i’m down or depressed. i would often sit down. get myself a drink and think. even stare into the sky. and think about my loved ones. think about all those good times in my life. and how lucky i’m to be able to sit there and have a drink. aprreciate and live for the moment. life is short. WHY NOT give it a BLAST. both the men have really touched me. i was actually speechless when i saw them. i quietly went over to them. gave them a smile. and i took 15 bucks from my wallet and gave it to them. that is the least i could do. i respect them for what they are doing. they’ve earned it. before i left. i gave him a pat on the shoulder. and he said ‘thank you so much.’  maybe i’m the first to give so much. well. i’m grateful that i’m able to give. till here.

-Kiaos-